As the New Year begins I reflect on these words scrawled on a yellow sticky note posted on my refrigerator door. “We finish…only to begin”. I have a lot I want to accomplish in 2014 and I have no idea (right now) how I am going to do it all. I also know I don’t have to know…I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other!
I recently wrote, produced and performed a one-woman play in less than 90 days! Had I not actually achieved this, I would not believe it. I still figuratively pinch myself sometimes and ask “Did that really happen?” “How did I do that?” and now I am wondering “What else am I capable of?” and I get a little freaked out.
Because my play “Lost in Sound” was so well received and especially since I keep hearing stories of how it is helping people, I feel this huge responsibility to serve humanity through this play. I have a sense that this play and it’s ripple effect is much bigger than me and I have a duty and an obligation to bring it to more people. That is honestly what keeps me going when I feel like quitting…this is not about me…it’s so much bigger than me, more than I will ever know.
The biggest obstacle is my own fear about how to do that and I know this…nothing is impossible! The truth is…through this whole process…I have not felt like I really knew what I was doing! I have been simply following my instincts and facing my fears to push through to the next step. Since it has brought me this far and I don’t know how else to do it, I’m going to stick with this strategy! One thing I do know for sure is that when I let go of my fears and get out of my own way…amazing things happen!